I think I keep re-starting my FFXI account with the hidden intent of recovering something that can no longer be found. I’d love to reconnect with the friends that are left, but things are so different, and we are spread across multiple servers now.. or if on the same server those that are left seem to have pained relationships with each other, or are kept busy with endgame.
I’ve considered just trying to focus on playing solo. I keep hoping I’m going to find new joy or excitement in an update, but when it boils down to it, I don’t have the time required to invest and the desire is dwindling, and in all honesty my health can’t hack it. I have decided that this will be my last month of FFXI. My final 4 weeks. Its been an amazing journey, and I’m thankful to have had it. Thankful to have met so many great people and cherish the friendships that have lasted. You have all impacted me. FFXI has the best community of any game I’ve ever played. I thank you all for making it that way! Insane how attached I became to FFXI, but I think I’ve finally found peace with leaving.
For these last 4 weeks in Vana’diel, I plan on mostly visiting my favorite places and getting some nice final screen shots of my time here. In homage to an old friend, I’ve decided my final log out will happen in Lufaise Meadows.. on the same cliff where Squeekers took me to see Tavnazia. He was such a good friend, and made the game so much fun for both my husband and I. I just feel its an appropriate gesture, and that its where my taru would want to be while she waits to be reborn in Eorzea.